I have just two weeks left before I complete my 5k swim for Cancer Research.
I am doing the swim in memory of my Mother-in-Law, who passed away last August. I hope to raise a £1000, but I’m a way off my target as yet. Since I first wrote about the swim, I have added an extra layer of difficulty, aiming to do the swim now in under three hours, rather than the four I originally planned for. I completed my longest training swim yet today, and while I don’t in anyway expect it to be easy, I do have faith in my willpower carrying me to the end when my arms and legs have inwardly given up!
I have a lot of personal goals that I don’t always achieve. I have picked up my ukulele twice so far this year. I haven’t been able to carve out a single evening on my book writing. Finding the motivation to rise early and meditate? Don’t make me laugh. These things frustrate me, of course they do. But I am long enough in the tooth to know the answer to a question that a friend often asks: ‘How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.’ Everything will be achieved. Just not all today, this week or this month.
As an INTJ there’s no doubt that having a specific end-date helps to focus my mind. Having the motivation of carrying on my Mother-In-Law’s good work drives me forward; over the course of twenty years, between her first and second cancer diagnoses, she helped to raise thousands of pounds for Cancer Research. As I swim, I often picture our last conversation together. She in her hospital bed, me in a posh outfit, having left a family wedding early so I could spend some time with her. I don’t know if she knew how truly poorly she was. I’m glad I didn’t know it would be the last time we would chat, as we had week in, week out, for a decade. What I know now is how much I miss her, and the memory of her courage, fortitude and good grace in the face of all helps me to keep ploughing up and down the lane.
In these frugal times I am watching my pennies. I expect everyone reading this feels much the same. But if you can find a fiver that you can push my way, to help me reach my goal and honour her memory, I would really appreciate it.